This is how I felt this morning.
Yeah, so all of you know that I slept at 4am+ just now.
Woke up around 7am when my alarm clock rang & everybody woke up.
Then I fell asleep again.
Woke up one hour later & forced myself to go and bath & not procrastinate.
I don't want to wake up later & then not going to school.
Hahaha, because I'm already in a dead shitx.
Felt like puking.
I always felt like that whenever I'm terribly sleepy & woke up half-way & then forced myself to stay awake.

Anyway, off to school, IN AUTO-MODE.
You know, sleepy, drowsy but you do everything like a robot, automatically.
Came across Afidah at the bus stop near my house.
(Oh, Afidah lives at the same block as me, used to work at BPP Macd,
and is in the same school & course as me! SO COINCIDENTAL RIGHT?)

& while I was on my way to block E3, stumbled across Syirin!
She suddenly shouted my name & started hugging me.
Then she said,"Dah pukul bwape baru kau datang?"
(It's already so late, then you come?)
Then she slapped me hard on the face.
I WAS DAMN SHOCKED!
& it kinda woke me up from my semi-sleep!
Then she went off happily, saying, "Lunch jumper eh!"

SO I walked away, still in my blur-mode.
SUPER BLUR.
WTH HAS JUST HAPPENED?
Yeah, so by the time I reached the elevator, then the information was stored in my head.
There, I realized what had just happened.
DAMN YOU SYIRIN!
Hahahaha.

Anyway, reached class during the first study period.
So I sat at the table in the middle of the class.
& then I realized that I've just made a mistake.
Went into the wrong group.
Those kerek2 peepo, you know.
And I was like, "I'm dead!"
Because then I can't cooperate with them & won't be able to do anything.
So, just sat there, staring at their faces, moaning inside.
Turned around, & saw Joanna looking & I quickly point to her table.
So she said, "Come la."
YAYYEEE! I WAS MORE THAN GLAD.
SO moved place. Changed group.
Weeeee~!
I'm happy. Hee^^
But I feel like I've just busted the other group.
LOL!
Nevermind, FOR MY OWN GOOD!
MUAHAHAHAH! :D



Okay, I don't why but 2009 changed me totally.
I can come up with a long list of reasons.

I'm more sarcastic? More straightforward? More mean?
I used to have eye contacts with people when we both speak, but now, I don't.
I used to smile & giggle EVERY TIME! Whenever I speak to people. But now, I don't.
I used to have stage fright, but now I don't.
I used to keep thoughts to myself but now I spit it out.
I used to think about others feelings first and then mine.
I used to stop cursing & even asked people not to curse
but now, I'm the one cursing here & there.
There's more.

But I can just say, my break-up & poly life are the key things that changed me drastically.

Is it because I've been constantly hurt, & now I'm hurting others too?
But it's a wrong thing to do isn't it?
YES.

I've never want to change. But the influence around me are just too strong.
Even I, myself, am shocked to see me like this.

Okay this means there will be a long list of resolutions for me for 2010.
Can you believe it? It's already 2010.
Time flies so fast.
I'm still in the September mode. Hahaha.

"All the things that break you,
are all the things that make you strong.
You can't change the past, cause it's gone,
and you've just gotta move on."
-Carrie Underwood.



& Mr Dinosaur (you know who. But I called him Giraffe),
texted this to me last time, after I've ignored him:

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don't.
& believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
They never said it would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth while."

HOHOHO!

Hola dear readers.
Today, was simply superb!
No Monday blues. Naa-ah-ahh. :D

So spent the whole afternoon editing my blog.
Okay, I'm finally satisfied with it. Nyeheheh.
Even though reading my blog gives me headaches some times.
Hahahaha.

Yeah, chatted with Baby on the phone for almost two hours.
Hahaha, & I could hear Hafiz in the background.
He's totally random. Really! He suddenly talked about something for so long.
So I asked Baby about what the hell is Hafiz talking about. Baby asked him, & we found out he was talking about some fox???
Hahahaha. Totally random.

Anyway, had a great laugh & Baby finally found out that he's the most sarcastic person that I've ever known. Lolololololol!
Awww, I miss him.
13 MORE DAYS! THIRTEENTH MORE DAYS!!!
When we both have already gotten our pay & finally get to see each other.
Boohoohoo. SOOoooo LONG! :(

Anyway, bro came back in the afternoon
& he was out again to collect his passport from ICA.
Just renewed it. NO FAIR! I WANT TOO!
Hahaha & Baby kept pestering me OTP to renew my passport so that I can go to his BBQ birthday party at JB.
Alaaaaa. Shy laaaaaaaa!!! *blush*

Yeah, bro came back home around evening & he came back with Chicken Briyani!
YUMYUMMM!
Hahaha, he's helping out this particular store at the moment
while this uncle is..... taking his leaves? Idk.
So, my bro has two jobs now. Crazy dude.
This brother of mine is always busy.
If there's no work, he'll keep himself busy by going out, wash his bike or surf the web.

Haiz.. Now I'm really wishing that school would end very very soon.
I wanna start working. I mean full-time job.
Have I ever told you that I hate school?
I hate school! HA HA HA!

Anyway, watched Macam-macam Aznil & I laughed like mad cow.
& Haziq, that bubbly cute kid from the movie 'Syurga Cinta' was there!!!
Hahahaa. SO CUTE LA HE!
If I have a son, I want my son to be bubbly & cute like that!!
Ha ha ha.
Yeah, so this show always keeps Monday blues away from me. :D

Then watched 'Sewa'. The last episode.
& I CRIED!
Ha ha ha, I'm such a cry baby.
Anyway, this time round, it's about this man who's married but his wife can't give birth to a child.
She was pregnant once, but I think she had a miscarriage.
So this couple always fight & they're getting far apart.
Anyhow, this guy had an affair with another woman.
They're planning to get married and are planning to reveal the relationship to the wife soon.
So one day, the guy & his scandal went to this jewelery shop to buy necklace.
& initially they qualified for this lucky draw thingy & stand to win a car.
After the guy got back home, his wife asked him whether he could send her to the doctor because her finger keeps bleeding non-stop.
But he didn't want to, saying that he has much work to do.
At night, his scandal called, asking whether he could come down to her house to catch the lucky draw results together on the TV.
In the end, he went & his wife went to see the doctor alone.
The guy won the car & his scandal was saying that it's a good sign.
A sign to tell his wife the truth.
So, when he reached home, before he could tell the truth, his wife told him that she's suffering from leukemia.
Then woman had be hospitalized to undergo treatment.
SO after that, the guy slowly changed.
He didn't want to marry the other woman anymore.
& this woman was dissatisfied, she went to the hospital
& revealed the truth, with the guy around.
But his wife was not really affected by it because she said,
"No woman will feel down when they have really felt true love".
Waaaa. Anyway, after that, the guy brought his wife on a ride on that car for the last time.
Then he brought her to this place to sell cars.
She was furious at first because she didn't want to follow him as she was quite mad at him after what had happened.
So this guy asked for forgiveness, & he said that he was mad at her as she couldn't give him a child. But then he realized that she too was mad about it.
& he realized that he was too selfish & whatsoever & he didn't want to lose his wife.

& then, I cried. Idk. It was super touching moment. Huhu!
Yeah, the wife cried & forgive her husband.
Yeah, so they sold the car & used the money to go overseas,England,
for their second honeymoon, like what the woman has always wanted when they have just gotten married & where the guy promised her to bring her there someday.
So, the promise was finally fulfilled. :D


Hahaha, yeah, after the show, went to Shop & Save to buy sanitary pads.
I ran out of them. & currently having menses. Yawr -__-"
Hahaa, so went to Bangkit with Mum.
Bought stuffs. The queue was long! Only one counter was opened.
So, when I finally have paid for some stuffs, walked out of the shop with my mum.
Then suddenly, I remembered something & started stamping my feet.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!
OUT OF ALL THINGS THAT I'VE BOUGHT,
I FORGOT TO BUY MY PAD!
When it is the main thing that I wanna buy & the main reason why I went to the shop.
-_______-"
Stupid STM! Hahaha.
SO WENT INTO THE SHOP AGAIN.
& the queue was super loooonnng.
Longer than before. :(
Haiyaaa.
& mum was like, "Bende lain kau beli. Bende tu kau tak beli".
Which means, I bought other things, but I didn't buy the pad.


Hahahahaah.
So got back home, & Baby's asleep I think.
Awwww, another day without his goodnight wishes.
Wanted to text him, but I figured out that he's fast asleep.
Didn't wanna wake him up with my message though.

Sleep dreams darling.
I love you.
&& I really really really am missing you badly. :(
Here's your goodnight kiss : Muah!
Catch it in your Lala World okay? (:
*hugs*

Hahahaha, True shitx!
& like now, I'm actually supposed to go to work at 2pm,
but here I am, still on the web, FB-ing.
LOLOLOLOL!
& Monica, my manager from work has just called.
& I lied saying that I forgot.
Hahahahah!
SO I said I'm coming at 3.30pm.
Lololololol! XD
& she said okay.
It's already 3.05pm now, but I still haven't take a shower yet.
Awww, can I NOT go to work?
But I want money.
How?
Nevermind.
Orang kata,"Susah-susah dahulu, senang-senang kemudian".
Itu orang kata lah. Bukan saya.
XD